Post Retreat…here it is!

Thursday. 3 days back in the ‘world’ after being off the grid on Soul Oxygen Retreat.

Soul Oxygen retreat was born out of our love to reconnect with who we are. Who we really are without all the roles that we have taken on.

Without the mum hat, the wife hat, the friend hat, the carer hat, the business owner hat, the employee hat…all those hats, is it any wonder that our necks are sore. That our heads can’t breath. That we can’t receive guidance through our crown! Our crown is so blocked with all these hats we wear.

So, on the weekend, we put down the hats and we showed up as just ourselves. Some of us had forgotten who that was. Some of us deepened our connection with that self. All of us got exactly what we needed for our experience.

We journeyed deep into the roots of our trees. The roots that hold us stable in this experience. Into the space where it is dark and cold…

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Often we are so afraid to dive into the dark, into the unknown. We tell stories about what we will find..and so we don’t even look.

The women who bravelyย journeyed with us were willing to look into the dark spaces that hadn’t had light for some time, and what they found….well, they would have to tell you themselves..but what I found in my dark was profound.

I found more of my gifts. I found where I had turned away from myself. I found where I had neglected me. Where I had said no to me and yes to others. I found more compassion. I found more depth. I found more love. Love for me.

I found more creativity. More beauty. More support. More courage. More. More that I wouldn’t have found if I didn’t create the space to explore.

Intentionally.

Safely.

Gently.

Soulfully.

I found all that beauty mirrored back at me through the beauty that showed up in physical form on the weekend.

I see how brave I am because I saw the bravery in the other women.

I saw how I trust myself because I saw how I trusted the women and they trusted me. Everything they brought, I saw mirrored back to me. The pain. The joy. The fear. The discomfort.

I was held. They were held. We were held.

*Sigh*

*Deep sigh*

*Smile*

So how am I feeling after the weekend? I am feeling completely inspired. I am feeling completely unsure of what next….but I TRUST that it is unfolding perfectly! And in all of this, I know that I AM ENOUGH. I am LOVEABLE. I am COMPLETE.

I am part of the journey and it is a part of me.

I am singing. I am dancing. I am laughing. I am crying. I am moving. I am still.

I am life. Life is me.

I mirror life and life mirrors me.

I am eternally grateful to the women who brought their love, their pain, their struggles, their support, their fear, their courage!

What we created on the weekend was pure MAGIC.

In the profound and wise words of a beautiful soul;

“There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose
Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waitin’ on the other side
It’s the climb”.

(Miley Cyrus)

To all of the journeyers, we see you. We love you. We are waiting for you.

Big, big love

Jen

xx

 

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